seuie

휴...

2011-03-24T16:07:00.001-07:00

돈이 맨날 모자라니 참 슬프네 ㅠ

흥

2011-03-01T22:33:00.000-08:00

맨날 너무 바빠서 잠을 못 자서 너무 졸리데.
그럼 모하러 오라그러냐?

busy..?

2010-10-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

요즘 써니가 하도 바빠서 쫌...그렇기도 했지만
내가 너무 심하게 나간건가? 걔도 힘들텐데...

yay

2010-09-27T08:39:00.000-07:00

Everything turned out great! :] I'm so glad it did. It actually turned out better than I even expected. It's such a relief. Now all I need to do is find a decent job haha

tv

2010-09-24T01:04:00.000-07:00

Wow. I totally did not realize both House and Modern Family had begun their new seasons! except House isn't on fox or hulu yet so I gotta wait. So excited! Annnnnd Supernatural is starting soon >_ < oh man. I love TV.

sigh

2010-09-12T22:26:00.000-07:00

I really hope everything works out... if not, I don't know what I'd do.

door slamming

2010-09-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

fckn neighbors slamming doors at 8AM ㅡㅡ;
fckn shake the whole floor n i cant sleep WTF
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

T_T

2010-09-08T16:12:00.000-07:00

요즘 신입생들은 92년생들이구나.
아.......................................
늙어가고 있는 것 같다ㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏ

stye

2010-09-02T17:47:00.000-07:00

For the past few days I've had this stye in my left eyelid....wtf. I don't even know where this came from. I just woke up one day and my eye was swollen. I thought it was just swollen because I was tired or something...until I saw this yellow pus on the corner of my eye towards the night. Yeah, disgusting.

But now, it's gotten much better. You can't even tell anymore. It's just that inside is still not healed but I guess it's alright. The only downside is that I can't wear eye makeup because it might make it worse... gay.

another one

2010-08-31T15:56:00.000-07:00

Well, the since my last desktop, I found a bit more things and how to make it look cleaner :]

supernatural

2010-08-25T02:50:00.000-07:00

is so awesome. I just finished a marathon from season 1 - 5 in about a week or so. Can't wait till sept when the new season comes out!

interview

2010-08-19T19:13:00.001-07:00

So, yesterday I hung out with Nhi after her interview at Macy's. We went to Chinatown for some dim sum. We spent about $18 including tax for a shit load of food we couldn't even finish and I had to take a to-go box. awesomeeee :D Afterwards, we walked around downtown trying to find something for me to wear at my Wells Fargo interview the next day. Then, we went to Starbucks and ended up sitting there talking about high school and other stuff for about 2 hours. I haven't talked to her in such a long time but I definitely got it out of my system yesterday.

Today, we went to U district for my interview and had Little Thai. This was the first time trying that place, and I would say that it's actually pretty good. Then I had to go to the interview and so Nhi went home.

OMG that interview. There were a total of 9 people (it was a group interview) and most of them had lots of experience and knowledge in the area. Only 2 were students. There was one other guy who was just entering college and me. Although it was pretty intimidating, I got through the whole 2 hours and 13 minutes of it. Hopefully, I move on to the next interview because I seriously need a job. A stable job. Not like UT again...

O yea, but good news, I can do work study the next school year so if I don't get hired by Wells Fargo, at least I'll have that as backup.

desktop

2010-08-15T13:10:00.001-07:00

So, this is my first mod. The Vista taskbar is so hideous I had to just hide it. It's ok, I'll be running on Windows 7 soon :]

♥

2010-08-12T16:01:00.000-07:00

:[

2010-08-11T11:38:00.001-07:00

보고싶다ㅠㅠ

^$#$%^&(&^%$#@

2010-08-01T16:12:00.000-07:00

OMGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!

I am so sick and tired of hearing my brother's voice constantly! He talks loudly when gaming with people, and laughs obnoxiously while watching shows, then fights with his girlfriend for a few hours on the phone, then makes up with the girlfriend on the phone and is all lovey dovey for a few hours, then fights again, etc. UGH!!!!!!!!!! I can't stand being home for long periods of time, why is he always talking!

laterz

2010-07-27T04:03:00.000-07:00

Sun has gone to Korea yesterday...oh noooooooz! now i gotta hang out with my brother straight for a month :[

Summer

2010-07-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

Summers been pretty chill...nothing too much going on. Oh yea, I turned 21 and now I can go in bars and finally drink legally and go to happy hour, etc. Fun :]

I've been looking for a job, but man it's always so hard for me to find one. I've applied to so many places but I'm either too late and they've already filled the position or I'm just not what they're looking for, apparently. Oh well, the hunt is still on.

It's nearing that time when I find out if I got into architecture or not. I really hope that I get accepted because, or else I'm not so sure what I want to do. I've worked my ass off for this and it would be so heartbreaking to not get in. *sigh*

I've come to realize that this isn't the most exciting summer one could have. This I think is actually the most unfortunate one...I'm actually looking forward to autumn so I can go back to school. Hopefully something good happens soon, haha.

ugh

2010-06-18T21:05:00.002-07:00

I need to finish my portfolio, but why am I so lazy these dayssss?????

BUSY

2010-06-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

Wow I have been way to busy to worry bout this blogger...not that anyone reads it anyways.
But I like keeping track of things in my life and since I haven't updated since the New Years I have now just lost record of 6 months worth of my life. But then again, that 6 months was basically all dedicated to my classes so I guess it's fine. So now, I gotta gather my works(?) and make a portfolio! yay!.........

So, now I gotta run again to the library because I now have less than a week to finish this.

2010

2010-01-02T10:37:00.000-08:00

리쌍 - 숨

Wow it's been long since an update...it's finally January 2010!! Although I enjoyed my past year, I hope everything gets better this year especially my finances and my academics. It feels like the time goes by faster and faster every year. It's already been almost 2 months since Sun and I started going out, weird. XD But seriously, next quarter, I have to stay on top of everything! I need to 4.0 my arch class if I want to go into architecture...*sigh* I can't believe school starts in 2 days. I hope everything goes well next quarter!

훗

2009-11-23T21:46:00.000-08:00

Tei - 사랑은...향기를 남기고

Lucy, Allen, Paul and I had to go take pictures of Pike Place on Saturday for our architecture project and we decided to take people with us. Paul never showed up, and so it ended up being Lucy, Kento, Allen, John, Sun, and I walking around Pike Place for about 20 minutes. Then we decided to go to Oasis and hang out there taking pictures. What a great use of our Saturday? Hahahaha. Then afterwards, Sun and I went back to his place and hung out there...:] And we experimented with my flavored lip gloss, yum XD

Wow, so it's already been a week since I started going out with Sun. It still seems so new and at the same time not new at all since we hung out so much already. Hm, I don't think I like him as much as he likes me at this point...or, I actually don't know because I don't really want to leave when we're together, but I don't really miss him too much when we're not together. It's so different from when I liked Joon...perhaps that's because that was my first ever attempt at a relationship and I didn't know how to control my feelings..? Or maybe because I could never see Joon so I think I like him more than I actually do..? Feelings are so complicated.

Single No More

2009-11-18T01:09:00.001-08:00

Clazziquai - Tell Yourself

So right after posting last Wednesday, I went shopping with Sun. He ended up buying his beloved air jordans lol and we sat at Starbucks for about 3 or 4 hours just talking. I think we get along very well haha. And then there was more of school and hanging out after classes. Then Saturday, we hung out with Jasmine and her friends for her birthday. We went to the Bodies Exhibit where all the bodies were real!!! Oh my goodness, it was so fascinating and gross at the same time, especially when we went to the fetus section O.o... Afterwards, we went to BBQ to eat dinner and then separated. I ended up hanging out at Sun's for about 3 more hours. Monday came and I sat in his class for a movie then did homework. Then today, I went in his class again to watch another movie, which was really nasty btw, and then we went to Ode to study a bit and then had dinner where the manager made fun of us(?) for hanging out together so much -_ -. Then I ended up hanging out at his place again till about 10:30ish. And then...he asked me out haha. Nice progression :]

Easyyyy

2009-11-11T11:10:00.000-08:00

이승기 - 결혼해줄래

나한테 청혼하면서 이 노래 불러주면 진짜 기분 좋겠다>_ < ㅋ Anyways, this past friday was Daniel W's birthday so there was a party at Kento's place for him. A little mishap here and there, but in the end everything was fine :] And, I got home cuz Sun drove me YAY~ If not I would have had to crash at Kento's... And then on saturday, I went to work and I ended up hanging out with Sun again and we went to NRB with his friend. They were going crazy hahahaha. It was really fun :] Then on sunday, I worked at UT till about 3 and then met up with 슬기 who I haven't seen in about 2 years! 오랜만인데도 어제 본것처럼 어색하지 않아서 좋았어 :] Then monday came around, but this is an easy week because I had no pre-lab due on monday because of no lab on thursday! And then on tuesday, there was nothing crazy, just like every day except I could sleep as late as I want~ And here I am on wednesday, no school :] Wow, this week is so easy I might need some time adjusting to my regular school days again XD

Halloween

2009-11-05T08:30:00.000-08:00

MC몽 - 나는...feat. Ivy

So, I had made plans to go to freak night...didn't happen! On friday, I went to ATO's and hung out there for a little bit. Then went to BBQ where it was a little hectic. Got to some Korean party later and stayed there for a bit laying games and such. Oh man, I feel so bad leaving Jasmine with Sun because I was supposed to be taking care of Jasmine that night. Gosh, thanks Sun! But, yea I had a good time towards the end...only because...haha...:]

Anyways, then on Saturday I went to the Heartbreaker party/club thing with Sun and his friends. Oh man, that was fun! And then the peak of the night came and everything was just awesome. MmMmMm... Then we went to Chinatown to eat, although I didn't eat anything. And then I stayed over Sun's place. We were both dying because of the lack of sleep by next morning -_ -... But all was good regardless.

Then Monday and Tuesday came ruining my oh so good weekend and slapping me on the face with the Architecture midterm. sigh I studied so hard for that I barely got any sleep. But, I think the midterm ended up being not as bad as I thought it'd be, although I did miss a couple questions. After the midterm, I came straight home, which is pretty rare, and went to sleep for a few hours. And here I am on Thursday trying to do my lab before school, but writing here instead.

In conclusion, Halloween turned out to be very fun, the Architecture midterm is now happily taken care of, and the only thing left for me is to survive today in a sane condition so that I can go to Daniel W's birthday party on friday :]

Studying?

2009-10-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

배치기 - Unfade

Gosh, I love this song. Anyways, not much has happened the last week or so. Just frustrated over what I'll be and what I'll do on Halloween haha. I mean, it better be a great night of fun because I really deserve this shit. I've worked so much harder this quarter than all the other quarters before. +plus, I haven't gone out in such a long time!

Other than that, I'm trying to study for my math midterm that I have tomorrow and then I'll start studying for my chemistry midterm on Thursday. Math 126 is easy, yet kind of hard at the same time. Maybe because I can't see these 3D structures. Then I have architecture midterm next week that I should study for. yay......

Oh yea, Sun called today saying, "Oh I heard you're a good dancer?!"...sigh This information is probably from Jasmine since she praises me a lot about that although, I'm not actually a great dancer. bleh~ So he asked if I wanted to join the Overnight act he's putting together. Oh man, I don't know! I kind of want to because dancing's fun, but I also don't want to because...it's so time consuming T-T Oh well, I guess we'll see...

Oh and a little venting to do about...a certain someone. Every time I think it's getting better, but every time he never fails to disappoint my expectations. I mean, it's not that much, I just wanted to be friends. But then again, this time, it was me who refused to "visit" a couple of times and so that could be why. But, I had very legit reasons. And it's kind of...I don't know, weird. ARGHHHH

Texting

2009-10-21T22:28:00.000-07:00

이승기 - 꽃처럼

아니 근데, 내 문자 씹은거야? ㅡㅡ^ 이런...$%^@#$&! I'm so tired today, I feel like I just want to go to sleep and do nothing. Maybe I should take a nap..?

EDIT

아...안부 묻는 문자는 씹고, suggestive한 문자는 답을 보내주네? ㅡㅡ; ugh...
Anyways, I went to Macy's interview today and the manager talks, talks, talks, and then he says, "oh btw, you're hired." So, I have training tomorrow then a shift this saturday. C:

Sad Friday

2009-10-17T10:26:00.000-07:00

freeTEMPO & 이민기 - Power of Love Part2(3rd Coast Remix)

I really like this song :] I actually like this version way better than the original version. 민기's voice fits perfectly in with this kinda of music. His new album is kind of similar to this I guess, but not quite. Something's still missing. Maybe it's because he's not working with freeTEMPO. freeTEMPO is awesome XD

Anyways, on thursday, I had my first day of chem lab. It went pretty well, and we were the first ones to finish. Good thing we were, because I had already taken chem 142 before and knew what to do. If I didn't finish early, I would have been pretty pissed off. Hah, the night before when I was getting ready for the lab, I totally freaked out because I couldn't find my lab coat. I freaked out on Daniel S and he suggested I ask Joe C for his lab coat just for the day. The second I asked Joe, I found my lab coat and all was good. I was so happy!!

Hmm, and then on friday, I woke up really late, and freaked out again because I had to stop by the library before class to print something. But once again, all was good because I got there before class started and I was on time and everything :] Then after class we went to eat pho because it was cold and rainy; a perfect day for pho. Then afterwards, we heard Kento wasn't going to his usual class, so we met up with him at Hawaiian Barbecue and we ate again [shared one plate, but still...] And then we went back to Kento's place because we had never been there since he moved. Went over, talked a lot, and hit some...lol

I was invited to ATO's party but I had just started and didn't feel like going. I mean it's such a hassle to go party when I'm pumping 24/7. So when Daniel L texted, I told him I wasn't going to go because I wasn't feeling too well. Then he called 2 hours later because he thought I was still going. Oops...sorry Daniel T-T, I didn't mean to make you wait. But all is well, because hopefully I will be done by about tuesday and hopefully I get better from my flu -_ -

끝?

2009-10-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

none

아 짜증나. 나 오늘 기분 좋았었는데 갑자기 걔 때문에 기분 망쳤어. 남친 사귄 다음부터 연락도 안하더니 이젠 아무 이유없이 나한테 화내고ㅡㅡ;...그것도 모잘라서 "넌 몰라도 돼"라는건 뭥미? 솔직히 말해서 난 걔의 성격 내 스타일이 아니지만 그래도 친구니까 그러려니하고 받아줬는데, 이건 친구의 대한 예의가 아니라고 생각해. "난 니가 어떻게 반응할줄 아니까 너에게 설명할 필요가 없어."............WTF????? 그럼, 내 반응을 보기 위해서 항상 나랑 대화했던건가? 난, 친구니까 내 인생을 같이 공유하는줄 알았는데, 완전 어이없네? 기분 완전 구리고 대박인걸?

아 몰라, 어차피 성격도 안 맞았는데 친구 하나 잃으면 어때.

Post Fail

2009-10-11T15:48:00.000-07:00

김태우 - 기억과 추억 (feat. 데니,호영,준)

Oh man. Even after all these years, I still love the sound of 지오디 :]
Anyways, it's finally October and I'm about to start week 3. Does time fly by or what? It seems to me that the older I get, the faster time seems to go. Anyways, I happen to be sick at the moment with the flu. sigh... No, its not swine flu, and I am not dying even though I thought I was that one day I was really sick with crazy fever. Aside from the illness, my life is once again pretty packed with school and looking for a new job again. Long story short, I don't like where I work because I don't get enough hours so I'm looking for a new one. And so far, no luck. Oh, and talking about school reminds me that I should probably do my math homework and catch up on my arch reading. Gahh, now I can't write this post anymore, not that I had much to write anyways. Ok, I think I am now going to get my ass up and start my school work, again.

Brief Summary

2009-09-25T19:32:00.000-07:00

8eight - 잘가요 내사랑

I haven't written much in the last 2 weeks. Well, in the last 2 weeks, I have seen lots n lots of people haha. The high school crew, the figgas, and Sun, Jasmine, and of course Lucy, Nhi, & Kento. Lots of eating and coffeeing along with acts of randomness at times like dying hair and sleeping over on whim. Oh yes, I finally got my money today :D I'm so happy!

Yesterday I was watching YHY's Sketchbook #19. And it was one of the best episodes ever. All of the artists were the most talented and they were pretty much some of my favorite artists. :]

So this is a brief summary of my past 2 weeks. I now have about 5 days before school starts. Half excited, half not.

B Blood Type

2009-09-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

- 정이 많다.
- 무시를 당하거나 말이 씹히면 아무리 좋아하던 ( 동성,이성 ) 사람이라도 상관없이 "나 기분 나빴어!!"라는 티를 꼭 내줘야한다.
- 좋아하는 사람에 대해서는 뭐든지 금방 알아낸다.
- 마음에 드는 사람에게는 항상 웃는 얼굴로 대하지만 좀 꺼름직하고 마음에 안드는 사람에게는 꼭 싸운 사람 대하듯 재수없게 군다. ( 싫어하는 사람에게는 "웃는 얼굴에 침 뱉기" 엄청 잘한다 )
- "야 이것좀 해라" 하는 식의 명령어를 싫어한다.
- 기분 나쁜 일이 있어도 혼자 냅두면 혼자서 알아서 푼다.
- 하지만 기분 나빠하고 있는 데 건들면 괜히 틱틱 거리면서 시비를 걸고 결국 싸우게 된다.
- B형을 향한 친절은 적당해야지 도가 지나치면 거부감을 보인다.
- 답답한 사람을 싫어한다.
- 좋아하는 사람이 생기면 물불 안가리고 일단 덤벼든다.
- 기분이 좋으면 애교 잘 부린다.
- 하하호호 웃으면 잘 얘기하다가도 갑자기 조용해져 주위 사람들을 당황하게 만든다.
- 하지만 그건 화가 나서가 아니고 잠시 생각중인 것이다.
- 자신이 원하지 않을 때에 "혼자"가 되면 너무나도 외로워한다.
- 긍정적으로 살아가려 한다. 이래서 쿨하단 소리를 듣는 걸까?
- 기분이 나쁘면 아무말이나 막한다. 이래선 안된다는 걸 알면서도 기분 나쁘면 상대방에게 상처되는 말을 잘한다.
- 사람들이 웃기다고 생각하지 않는 것에 이상한 상상을 하며 잘 웃는다.
- 비밀이 많다. 하지만 잘 털어놓는다.
- 한다면 하는 사람들이다.
- B형의 무서운 점은 맘만 먹으면 뭐든 해낸다는 것이다.
- B형에게 미움을 사면 좋을 거 없다.ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
- 어떻게든 복수를 하고야만다.
- 솔직하다. 그래서 O형들이 B형을 좋아하는 것 같다.
- 눈이 높다. B형들이 좋아하는 사람들을 보면 대부분 선남선녀들이다.
- 이기적이다.
- 고집이 세다. 갖고 싶은 게 있으면 꼭 가져야 하고, 하고 싶은 게 있으면 꼭 해야만 한다.
- 단순하다.
- B형의 첫인상은 대부분이 날카롭다.
- 다혈질이다.
- 남에게 구속당하길 싫어한다.
- 혼자 상상을 자주 한다.
- 자신의 말이 씹히는 건 좋아하지 않으면서 남의 말은 잘 씹는다.
- 자신이 흥미있어 하는 일에는 미친듯이 파고든다.
- 하지만 싫증을 잘 느낀다.
- 새로운 것에 도전을 잘한다.
- 친한 사람에게는 모든 걸 다 보여준다. (하지만 아닌 사람에게는 적당히 거리를 두고 사귄다.)
- 궁금한 거 절대 못참는다.

이거 정말 너무 잘맞는거 아냐?ㅎ

New Start for Her

2009-09-12T00:03:00.000-07:00

G.O.D. - 왜

So, yesterday, I finally saw Jasmine in about...I don't know, at least a half a year? haha. She had changed so much since I last saw her. She had lost at least 10lbs, had cut her hair really short and permed it with loose curls, plus her fashion had gotten much more mature than before. Everything about her screamed change. Also, her Korean had gotten much, much better. It was nice talking to her again, and like always I realized that I talk a lot around her XD Anyways, I'm glad I'll be seeing more of her at UW and hopefully work out together and eat lunch together and what not. :]

Daily Routines

2009-09-09T20:01:00.000-07:00

V.O.S. - To Luv feat. 재범

A few days ago, I went to Nhi's house and hung out with her at her house and we ended up watching 17 Again. It was really cute and funny. Very nice movie. +plus Zac Effron is always nice to look at XD

And then today, hung out with 승국이ㅋ. 얘기가 잘 통하는것 같에ㅋ We ate at Mongolian Grill for the first time. Nice place...And then had some Starbucks. yummmmmmm :] I don't really feel like writing too much today. bleh.

Dinner Date

2009-09-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

Clazziquai - Tell Yourself

So ~~today~~ yesterday finally came, and I am so glad that it did. I hadn't seen Lucy for about 3 weeks, except for those 10 second glimpses I caught of her when I walked by Aldo while she was working. It was nice to see her again, although our conversations online every night was probably enough to make up for all those big gaps between hang outs. Oh, man those conversations. I should have saved them.

I went to Bellevue Square and met up with Nhi and Lucy, like always, and we shopped(?) and walked around. Then went to pick up Kento and came back to meet up with John and went to Cheesecake Factory. I was finally able to dress nicely with nice make-up go outside of my apartment to have some nice dinner in an elegant manner. Seeing that the only times I walk out of the apartment nowadays is to get something from the convenient store right below or to go to work, it was a very nice change. Wow, I keep diverging from the main story. Anyways, I had this Sali...something Chopped Steak and it was delicious. +plus I love that black bread they have. [not actually black, just my figure of speech] Afterward, we walked around for a little while then I came back home.

Now that I have this written down, it doesn't really seem like much...But then again, no one knows what it's like to hang out with nhi and lucy unless you've been there. Our trio is the most hilarious group of people I know. I don't think I laugh even half as much with other people as I do with them every time. Of course Kento also contributes to about 40% of the fun-ness. And John. Oh John. The most random person I know, and yet, he manages to make sense. So what I really want to say is, I had a lot of fun that I haven't had in a while and I think everyone is missing out on our trio's humor. Oh well.

End of Summer Quarter Part II

2009-09-02T17:46:00.000-07:00

Brown Eyed Girls - L.O.V.E.

So, where did I leave off last time...ah, yes. The night I went back to my buddy. I would have continued this story earlier, but those Chinese movies I wrote about below totally inspired me to analyze them and such so that's why there is that long ass intermission between my stories.

Anyways, a few days after that night, I had lunch with Michelle K and Claire my awesome former roommates. I hadn't seen Michelle since I dyed my hair and Claire since...I-don't-even-remember long ago. It was really nice to do some ~~former~~ roommate bonding. +plus we went to Regent's which is totally my restaurant/bakery since junior year of high school. Real Chinese food and pastry is always a plus factor in my dictionary.

Then, Claire and I went back to UW and played some intense badminton for about 2~3 hours. I loved the fact that there were practically no one there at the gym. I always hated those mass groups of Asians playing badminton all day at the IMA. I was very relieved to, finally, be playing badminton for as long as I wanted to with no people around to look nice for.

And then, lastly, I went to the Mariner's game. Yes, baseball. I went with 5 of my high school friends, and needless to say, it was fun. Baseball games are pretty much always fun. +plus the food, the excitement, and the fact that the moose was so close to us was pretty amazing.

2046, a Space of Past Memories

2009-09-01T16:25:00.000-07:00

Maybee - 2046

Maybee의 'A Letter from Abell 1689'앨범의 수록된 intro인 '2046'라는 곡은 처음 들었을때부터 마음이 갔다. 이 곡은 몽환적이며 애처롭다. Maybee의 목소리는 애절함이 묻어난다. 이 노래를 들을때면 마치 사랑하는 사람과 막 이별한것 같은 그런 느낌이 든다.

문득 '2046이 뭘까?'라는 궁금증이 생겨 네이버에 검색하니 왕가위의 영화였다. 더 찾아보니 아비정전 화양연화 그리고 2046, 이 세편의 영화가 연결이 되있다는 것을 알았다. 많은 사람들은 2046이 화양연화의 후속작인건 알지만, 화양연화가 아비정전의 후속작인건 잘 모른다. 왜냐하면 아비정전과 나머지 두 영화는 스토리가 연결되지 않기 때문에...

아비정전은 사랑할 수 없는 남자 아비와 그를 사랑한 두 여인, 수리첸과 Lulu의 이야기다. 그렇다 화양연화의 수리첸과 2046의 Lulu를 아비정전에서 태어난 것이다. 아비는 자기자신을 '발 없는 새'라고 표현한다.

발 없는 새가 있다더군.
늘 날아다니다가 지치면 바람속에서 쉰대.
평생에 꼭 한번 땅에 내려앉는데, 그건 바로 죽을때지.

처음 사랑에 빠지게 한 여자는 수리첸. 수리첸의 청혼을 거절하고 수리첸은 아비를 떠난다. 아비를 못 잊고 다시 찾아오지만 아비는 벌써 Lulu와 함께다. Lulu는 아비의 모든것을 가지려 한다. 아비는 아무말없이 싱가폴로 떠나고 Lulu는 버려진다. 떠나간 아비는 친어머니를 찾았지만, 그녀는 만나주지 않았다. 기차에서 아비는 총을맞고 죽으며 말한다.

새가 한마리 있었다.
죽을 때까지 날아다니던,
하지만 새는 그 어느곳에도 가지 못했다.
왜냐하면 처음부터 새는 죽어있었기 때문이다.

그리고 스토리와는 정혀 연결되있진 않지만 영화 마지막 장면에 양조위가 출연한다. 양조위가 새로운 아비가 되는 것이다.

차우(양조위)는 유부남이다. 우연히 수리첸이라는 유부녀의 옆집 이웃이 된다. 둘은 눈치챈다, 수리첸의 남편과 차우의 아내가 몰래 만난다는걸. 그리고 둘은 같이 아파한다. 그러면서 사랑이 시작된다. 육체적인 외도가 아니니 "우리는 분명히 달라"라며 서로를 위로하며 격려한다. 차우는 하던일을 그만두고 글을쓰기 시작한다, 수리첸과 같이.

옛날 사람들은 말 못할 비밀이 있을 때면,
산에 올라가 나무를 찾아 구멍을 파고
그 구멍에 비밀을 속삭인 뒤 흙으로 구멍을 막아버렸다.
그러면 비밀은 영원히 묻혀진다.

차우는 고백한다 어느새 사랑하게 되었다고. 육체적인 외도와 마음의 외도가 결국 같다는걸 알아버린다.차우는 호텔의 2046호로 옮기고, 그 후에도 수리첸은 계속 차우를 보러간다. 차우는 수리첸에게 같이 싱가폴로 떠나자고 하지만 수리첸은 거절한다. 그리고 차우는 떠난다. 오랜 시간이 흐른뒤 다시 살던 곳으로 가보지만 수리첸을 만나지 못한다. 영화의 마자막엔 차우가 앙코르와트에서 구멍안으로 속삭인다. 그리고 구멍을 막는다.

위 두 영화는 이렇게 메인 스토리가 명확하지만 2046은 조금 더 볶잡하다. 하지만 메인 케릭터는 역시 차우.

차우는 싱가폴에서 수리첸이라는 또 다른 여인을 만난다. 그 속에서 예전에 사랑하던 수리첸을 찾으며 새로운 수리첸에게 떠나자고 하지만 이 여자는 그렇게 하지 못한다. 그리고 차우는 Lulu와의 친분을 가진다. Lulu는 계속 '발 없는 새'만 찾는다. 옛 기억의 젖어 2046호에 머물고 싶어 하지만 2046호에는 Lulu가 죽어 할 수 없이 2047호에 지내게 된다. 그 후 2046호에 들어가도 된다고 주인이 말하지만 그땐 2047호에 익숙해저 그냥 있기로 한다. 2046호엔 젊고 아름다운 바이링이 들어오고 둘은 친해지기 시작한다. 하이클래스 콜걸인 바이링. 둘은 함께 많은 밤을 같이 보내고 바이링은 점점 사랑에 빠진다. 하지만 2046의 차우는 화양연화의 차우와는 전혀 다르다. 마음의 문이 굳게 닫혀있다. 말만 잘하는 플레이보이가 된 것 이다.

딴 여자들과 날 똑같이 취급하지 말아줘.
날 사랑하지 않아도 좋아. 내 사랑을 막지는 마.

차우와 바이링은 이별을 하고 2046호에는 주인의 딸 완진웽이 다시 들어온다. 그녀는 아버지의 반대로 일본인의 남자친구와 가슴아픈 사랑을 하는 중 이다. 그녀를 도와주며 친해지고 그녀와 같이 '2046'이라는 소설을 쓰게된다. 소설은 미래의 얘기다. 사람들은 열차를 타고 2046이라는 곳을 찾아간다, 옛 사랑을 찾기 위해. 같이 소설을 쓰는 장면은 마치 화양연화에서의 차우와 수리첸을 연상시킨다. 차우는 점차 사랑을 느끼기 시작하고 완진웽을 위해 소설 '2047'을 쓴다. 2046에서 돌아오는 한 남자. 열차안 인조인간에게서 사랑을 느끼고 샅이 떠나자고 하지만 그녀는 답이 없다. 그리고 열차안에 남자는 알게된다, 그녀가 사랑하는 사람은 따로 있다고. 이와같이 벌써 사랑하는 사람이 있는 그녀이기에 타우는 일찍히 포기한다. 나는 차우가 다시 마음을 열고 싶어한다고 믿는다. 사람이라면 모두 사랑하고 행복하고 싶어하니까...

그후 바이링이 차우에게 찾아온다. 싱가폴로 떠난다고 한다. 같이 저녁을 하고 예전처럼 술도 마신다. 차우는 바이링을 집에 데려다준다. 그리고 바이링은 오늘밤만 같이 있어달라고 한다. 예전으로 돌아가자고.

기억나?
전에 내게 물었었지 뭐든 빌려줄 수 있냐고.
생각해 봤는데, 이제 깨달았어.
빌려줄 수 없는 게 한 가지 있다는 걸...

그건 바로 그의 마음이었다. 그 옛날 수리첸과의 사랑때문에 차우의 마음은 이제 영원히 닫힌 것 이다. 옛 사랑때문에 현재사랑을 미뤄내고 있는 것 이었다. 그리고 차우의 그런 의미없는 나날들은 계속 된다. 만나는 여자들은 단지 육체적인 쾌락때문일 뿐.

사랑에 대신은 없다.
사랑은 타이밍이다.
타이밍은 두 번 다시 돌아오지 않는다.

사랑하는 사람을 다른 시간에 만났더라면 어땠을까?

이 세편의 영화들은 정말 많은 생각들을 하게 했다. 아직 어리기에 전부 공감되진 않지만, 나중에 10년 정도 뒤에 다시 봐야겠다는 생각을 하게 했다.

End of Summer Quarter

2009-08-29T13:13:00.000-07:00

It's been about a month since the last post and I have to say, lots of things have happened in the past month. I actually thought I hadn't done too much during the summer, but after listing them out in my head, I must say it hasn't been a boring summer.

So there was Tyler's little "get-together" and Stephanie ended up having her first shot of alcohol. wow. A pretty bold move on her part since she's the one that hated the idea of drinking, always scolding others [or mostly me] for drinking. And then there was Daniel M's party the next weekend where, of course, Stephanie attended for another time to get crunk. Although pretty hypocritical, I don't blame her because...it is fun. I got to finally hang out with Lucy, who I hadn't seen for the whole summer. If Nhi had been there, then it would have been perfect. Trying to get her to sneak out last minute didn't work as well as Lucy and I thought would work. haha, oh well. Overall, it was nice to hang out with the friends again. 음...집으로 오는 차안에서는 굉장히 어색했지만ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

And then just a few days later, Nhi, Lucy, and I decided to have a little party of our own in a tent. I have no clue how we came up with this idea, but it was pretty fun. Plus, I always love hanging out with them. We made cups with our names on it and drawing of our tribe-identities. We set up the tent, brought out the sleeping bags, a lamp, and the Vodka. Hanging out with them sober is always fun, but hanging out with them drunk has to be funner. Oh man that was some crazy time.

Then the week after this, I hung out with Nhi in Seattle, and I ended up going back to Bellevue with her and sleeping over at her house. She helped me dye my hair, which I have to say didn't turn out as light as I wanted. We played the Game of Life and she totally kicked my ass. Her mom made this delicious pasta with corn. XD I love corn! Then we "went to sleep" as in we stayed up talking for 3 hours in her bed. And we drifted off to sleep, finally. The next day, we woke up at about 2PM [oh 2PM, I love them :3] and went to Bellevue Square, had McDonald's and once again, went back to Nhi's house and stayed over another night. I hung out with Nhi for roughly about 60 hours nonstop. And then I went back home after I woke up on the third day and re-dyed my hair. I think it turned out quite alright.

Then, it was time for my final exams and the summer quarter ended. I did pretty horrible during my summer quarter, sigh...

That weekend was Margaret's birthday, so we all gathered at Blue Ginger and had good Korean food. Oh yea, I ran into Julisha there, very nice surprise. I hadn't seen her in over a year. Anyways we, then, went to Crossroads for ice cream and sat and talked for another 30 minutes until we decided to go to Margaret's house. We ended up playing this one board game I can't remember the name of, and then played Apples to Apples. It was pretty fun although we all got really tired at the end. It was about 1AM by that time and we had finished the whole deck of cards, so it was a very long game. In the middle of playing these games, Michelle calls and tells me to go to the party at ATOs. Thanks for telling me last minute, you know, because I didn't sell my car and I totally have a ride. But then again, I'm kind of glad I didn't go. Because if I had gone, then I probably would have stayed over at their place all drunk. I don't know, I'm not very fond of those big parties, especially frat parties.

Anyways, so I ended up staying over at Stephanie's house that night after Margaret's little surprise because it was late and the buses don't run that late. We "went to sleep"...as in, once again, talking for about 3 hours. Then Sunday morning came and I woke up early, and took the bus home to get changed and went to work. yay -_ -. I came home after work, just to find that Daniel L had messaged me the day before inviting me to that one party I missed. Oh wells. He started talking to me and then I was already on the bus over to his place. He asked me to help him with his trip to Korea, so I decided to help him...a perfectly innocent reason to call someone over at 10PM..?

Ok, I knew what was going to happen. But then again, why not? He's single and was going to Korea for 3 weeks the day after. We've had lots of encounters before, nothing new. And so I went over, we talked about his trip to Korea a lot, I gave him some shit for smoking, and I "decided" to not take the bus home and slept over. He drove off to the airport next morning, and I went home pretty satisfied.

There's actually more things that have happened, but I'm now getting tired and maybe, I'll talk about them later.

The 5th Sketchbook

2009-07-21T01:18:00.000-07:00

Mate - 그리워

오늘본 유희열의 스케치북 5장은 지금까지 한 12회의 스케치북중에서 정말로 제일 최고였다. 처음 게스트 김진표도 괜찮았고...윤하는 아무말도 필요없는 실력있는 뮤지션이니까. 슬프고 몽환적인 발라드 [오늘 서울은 하루종일 맑음]부터 정말 경쾌한 [Cherry Bomb]까지 완벽하게 소화할 수 있는 그런 뮤지션. 나랑 동갑이지만 존경해요 윤하! 윤하와의 토크도 진짜 제일 재미있었던 것 같다. 중간의 유희열님이 그렇게 좋아하는 카라도 나오고ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 나 새벽에 혼자보면서 죽는줄 알았다. 오빠 자는데 혼자 낄낄거리고ㅋㄷㅋㄷ

그 다음으로 나온 신인밴드 Mate는 "와~"라는 소리밖에 안 나오더라. 진짜 준비된, 신인같지 않은 신인.

느낌은 아주 약간 Nell필이 나지만, 개인적으로 목소린 Mate가 더 좋더라>_ < 실력이 검증된 기타리스트/보컬과 목소리가 매력적인 키보드/보컬. 마지막으로 정말 샤방+_+한 드러머까지!! 모...드러머도 실력이 만만치않지만 그래도 역시 비쥬얼이 좋으니 그 생각밖에 안나나봐ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 여튼, 오랜만에 정말 괜찮은 밴드 하나 나왔서 진짜 좋다 :]

마지막으로, 천제적인 피아니스트 Giovanni Allevi. 정말 나 뉴에이지 스타일 너무 좋아해 :3 처음에 접한 뉴에이지 피아니스트는 그 유명한 이루마이고, 그 다음이 오늘 접한 지오바니...내가 진짜 지오바니 악보들 찾아내고 말거야!! XD

정말 보람찬 1시간이었어...^______^ 얼마나 좋았으면 지금 바로 포스트까지 쓰겠어ㅋ 스케치북 보면서 처음으로 중간에 끊고 가수들이 불렀던 노래들을 즉시 다운받았다는거 아니겠어 -_-V...불법이겠지만 말이야...쩝...

Music List

2009-07-13T21:49:00.000-07:00

Epik High - 선곡표

Stay(Nell), 이 밤이 깊어 가지만(서태지와아이들)
부디(윤종신) 안녕이라고 말하지마(이승철)
그댄 어떤가요?(박화요비) 이 밤의 끝을 잡고(솔리드)
싶은데 그건 절대 안되나요(휘성)?

난 그댈 원하고 원망하죠(에즈원)
이별택시(김연우)를 타고 어서(에즈원) '아디오'(양파)
잘가요(정재욱)let me say goodbye(바비킴)
거리에서(성시경) 혼자남은 한남자(김종국)

사랑한다는 말(김동률) 그 거짓말(god)에
한숨만(이정) 늘어가네 다신(이정) 사랑안해(백지영)
남자답게(Fly to the sky) 이젠(노이즈) 널 지우려해(서태지와 아이들)
다신(이정) 마주치지 말자(장혜진) 난 행복해(이소라)

근데 사랑은 향기를 남기고(테이)가
벌써 그녀가 너무 보고 싶다(김범수)
정말(디바) 사랑했나봐(윤도현) 그래(디바) 너의 뒤에서(박진영)
후회한다. 친구라도 될껄그랬어(거미)

사랑하긴 했던걸까?
장난이었던건 아닐까?
니가 노래하던 이별 얘기들이 가사처럼
기억도 잊혀져갈까.

다시사랑한다말할까(김동률)
사랑할수록(부활) 멀어져 간사람아(박상민)
아무리 생각해도 난 너를(스윗소로우)
사랑해 그리고 생각해(김진표) 너를 위해(임재범)

천일동안(이승환) 이별이 오지 못하게(페이지)
내눈물모아(서지원) 살다가(sg워너비) 사랑한 후에(신성우)
내 남은 사랑을 위해(홍경민) 벌써 일년(브라운아이즈)
사랑하기때문에(유재하) 아름다운 이별(김건모)

그대만있다면(러브홀릭) 행복한 나를(에코)
다 줄꺼야(조규만) 사랑은(더네임) 아름다운 날들(장혜진)

사랑했잖아(린) 뭐를 잘못한거니(에스더)
너의 집앞에서(쿨) 발걸음(에메랄드캐슬) 덩그러니 (이수영)

바람이 분다(이소라) 전부 너였다(노을)
한장의 추억(쿨) 사진을 보다가(바이브)
기억속으로(이은미) 가만히 눈을 감고(정재욱)
어제처럼(제이) 또 한번 사랑은 가고(이기찬)

기억속에서 멀어진 너의 모습을 찾을수 있었지
널 잊을수 없어
날 보낼수 없어 이렇게도 say goodbye

사랑하긴 했던걸까?
그저 장난이었던건 아닐까?
우리가 노래하던 이별 얘기들의 가사처럼
기억도 잊혀져갈까

요즘엔 들을만할 노래가 없어
마음속에 담을만한 가사가 없어
그대가 떠났기 때문에
세상이 변했기 때문에

Summer

2009-06-28T10:31:00.000-07:00

Dynamic Duo - Good Love

So on thursday, I went to watch Transformers 2 and it was awesome!!!!!!

Anyways, apart from that, I figured out that I had to take more than 12 credits, not 10, in order to receive the summer aid. So i ended up having to add another class.

And now I also take differential equations during the summer along with english and economics. *sigh* At least I enjoy math... But yea, I got my money so I'm definitely happy about that. One more class is definitely worth getting money for. :]

Laziness

2009-06-21T18:57:00.000-07:00

2PM - Again & Again

Oh my, 2PM has been growing on me recently especially because I see them on TV shows a lot now and they are hilarious!! Plus, they're kind of hot ;]

Anyways, my mom has come to Seattle from Korea a few days ago, and I think I've gained weight since her arrival. There's so much good food in the house now, I think I'm in heaven. *sigh* Not worrying about cooking everyday is seriously relaxing. I also haven't done anything the whole week after school has ended. I guess that's good since I'll be back for summer quarter in a day -_ -. So it's just been me, myself, and I getting fatter and lazier.

Except for last night I went to Golden Gate Park [I think that was the name of it] and they were already doing a bonfire. It was pretty cool, until the regulators came and put out the fire at about 10:30PM-ish. Surprisingly, Tyler and I weren't as awkward as I thought we would be so that was really nice. Apparently, the beach closes at about 11:30PM. So we went to Menez's house to hang out more. And I was able to get a ride back to Seattle at about 2:30AM. I felt really bad being such a hassle. I normally would have stayed the whole time, but of course I didn't want to worry my mother. Oh well, there's more time to hang out later, too.

So, here I am at home doing nothing again. I love the laziness.

Up

2009-06-14T13:28:00.000-07:00

So on friday, I moved out of my dorm and that night, I went to Kento's to hang out since my finals was over. It was pretty fun :] Although I got a little sick towards the end of the night, I was fine in the morning and went home. Then I slept from about 9AM until about 7PM. Then I woke up, ate dinner with my brother then decided to go to the movies.

At the movie theater, we went in to see the first hour of Terminator, then left to go see Up. Oh man, Up was one of the best movies I've ever seen!! >_ <

The animation was amazing with the beautiful scenery and all. The color was vibrant and vivid. Characterization was also awesome since I was able to connect with Mr. Frederickson and Russell. The first 20 min definitely made me cry because it was such a beautiful love story. That alone deserves its own movie. And of course, I loved Dug because he's just a funny character. Every character had their own personalities and it was just great. The storyline was very tight and oh man, I just loved it!

Frustrated

2009-06-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

Epik High - Be

So in about 4 hours, I have to go take my chemistry final. *sigh* The reason I am still awake is firstly because I have been studying until now and secondly, I don't have an alarm clock or my cell phone to wake me up in the morning. Yes, life sucks without a cell phone.

Moving on from the cell phone subject(-_ -)...So I just realized how I seriously regret slacking off the whole spring quarter. My grades could have been so much better. Oh well. I guess I can't really blame it on anything because I chose to do that.

Anyways, I recently ran into 수철, about a few days ago at the convenient store at the apartment building that I just moved into. The very last day of moving in, I happened to go into the convenient store and stand in awe. We haven't seen each other since about 2 years ago so it was pretty shocking. Good for him, he grew taller and a big more built; although I can't remember too well since I was in a hurry.

Hmmm...what else has happened lately? Oh yes. I wanted to complain why the school is making everyone move out during finals week. It's so much trouble for all the students. Do they want us to fail our classes or something? UGHHHHH I am so irritated, you have no idea -__ -^. Plus they seem to have cut the ethernet in my dorm room. Because I don't need the internet at all when I study, right? Because I don't need to access Webassign or the GoPost for chemistry. I mean, damn, WTF!

마지막으로, 진짜 쓰고 싶은건 많은데 좀...그렇다. 아 제발 좀 좋아졌으면 좋겠다. 오빠랑 싸우는건 정말 흔한 일이지만 이번처럼 심하게 싸운적은 없어서. 하지만, 진짜 미안하단 말은 억울해서 못 하겠더라-_ -. 잘못한게 없는데. 아, 짜증나 진짜. 돈 문제도 빨리 해결됬으면 좋겠다. 휴...........

Ah whatever. I just really need to do well on my chemistry final.

Dramatic Change?

2009-06-08T01:30:00.000-07:00

Friday, some lady apparently started to stalk Lucy at urban outfitters. But of course, Lucy never noticed it until the lady came up to her and asked her to hair model for a Paul Mitchell show. I, feeling awkward, decided to leave the premises to let them talk about the whole modeling thing because, obviously, the lady definitely wants Lucy, not me. Turns out, she decided she could use me too.

So i found out the info about it on saturday night that I need to be at the Seattle Convention Center by 7AM. Since Lucy was coming over at about 6ish, I thought 'I'll wake up at 5:30 and shower and get ready!". Next morning, the alarm does not go off and I woke up when Lucy arrived. *sigh* After showering and dressing, I leave for the bus stop to find out I have no shoes and no wardrobe for the show. We decide that they'll probably have extras...which, thankfully, they did.

When we got there, there was no one so we thought we couldn't participate because we were about 30min late, but it turns out that that didn't matter at all. We just didn't know there was another separate room for the model prep. While getting ready, people kept asking questions like, "How long have you been modeling?" and "Which agency are you with?". And of course I'm like...'uhhh I didn't know these were all actual models -_ -...' They weren't really the stereotypical tall, skinny, gorgeous models.

Then everything was ready. Straihtened hair, classic asian makeup (a.k.a. Geisha or Ja~ho makeup), and black dress with pointy boots. Everything was ready and the show started. Some models went on stage, some stay backstage and waited. Models went on and off stage except for me and another girl who didn't get anything done during the first show. Bummer... At least I got to eat lunch first :]

Then the second show started, and I went up during the middle-ish and Collin, one of the stylists for Paul Mitchell, colored my hair. Then off-stage again to wash and by the time my hair was washed, the show was over -_ -. All that waiting time for something so little. I didn't even get to walk like the other girls because my hair wasn't done T-T

Oh wells. At least I got free hair products, and free coloring. Overall, it was a pretty cool experience pretending to be a model, even if it was just a hair model. As for my hair, it wasn't so much of a dramatic change. More like, "it's so subtle, you can barely tell the difference!". At least it looks more different in the sunlight.

Trivial Things

2009-06-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

Yay for the very first layout :]

I originally took an already made layout from createblog, because I really liked the simplicity of the layout. However, I ended up adding more color and adjusting the alignment and the text on the background image. Just a little tweak, not much. ;] I hope it's alright that I edited the layout since I acknowledged that the layout was edited from the original made by tuesday.

Anyways, tomorrow I'm supposed to do some hair modeling for a Paul Mitchell show with Lucy at the Seattle Convention Center. I'm somewhat excited for it! Hopefully it turns out to be an amazing once in a lifetime experience. :D

First

2009-06-06T13:37:00.001-07:00

So, first post...
I felt left out from Lucy and Nhi talking about their blog things so I decided I needed a blog, too. haha. Well, there's nothing special since I really don't have much to say other than that I should be either studying for finals doing homework and here I am making a blog. -_ -

seuie

휴...

흥

busy..?

yay

tv

sigh

door slamming

T_T

stye

another one

supernatural

interview

desktop

♥

:[

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laterz

Summer

ugh

BUSY

2010

훗

Single No More

Easyyyy

Halloween

Studying?

Texting

Sad Friday

끝?

Post Fail

Brief Summary

B Blood Type

New Start for Her

Daily Routines

Dinner Date

End of Summer Quarter Part II

2046, a Space of Past Memories

End of Summer Quarter

The 5th Sketchbook

Music List

Summer

Laziness

Up

Frustrated

Dramatic Change?

Trivial Things

First

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